This Little Light of Mine.

“Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16

Matthew 5:16 is one of my favorite verses in the Bible because to me it’s what being a Christian is all about. When you tell someone you’re a Christian they should be able to see it as well, actions speak louder than words. Anyone can profess to be a Christian, but who can show it?

Lately I’m afraid the batteries in my light have been dead and my light has been out. It’s not like I’ve been completely off track with my walk with God but I’ve been caught up with worldly things & worldly feelings that I’ve clouded the area around my light & let it go dim and I’ve just been letting it pass and letting is pass that now my light is completely out. No more. Today I have replaced the batteries in my life & I will let it shine! Just as the song says, “Hide it under a bushel, no…I’m gonna let it shine!”

Personally, I feel like I get so caught up with other people I get my focus off of myself. For example; well so and so doesn’t do this or that so why should I? I should because if I feel it’s something I need to do in my heart, something that God has laid on my heart to do and I ignore it then I’m basically ignoring God, or putting Him on hold and that’s not how it works. If you’re focused on other people you can’t be focused on God.

It’s no one else’s job to keep me in check but mine. No one knows my heart like God and myself and I shouldn’t, nor can I expect anyone else to keep me in check but me and me alone. Nor should anyone want to because they should be worrying about themselves as well. Now I’m not saying that if your friend, or someone who you’re use to seeing at church every time the doors are open misses 2 Sunday’s in a row or something like that, you can’t call or text them & ask them if they’re ok, that’s not what I’m saying. What I mean is that you shouldn’t be trying to keep up with others, compare yourself to others or anything like that.

Christians shouldn’t be following other Christians, they should be following Christ.

As a Christian my goal should not be to be like other people I go to church with, my goal should be to be like Christ. & that’s my new goal. I know a lot of people are thinking of New year resolutions for 2017 but I’m starting today. My prayer is not that I become more like the lady on the 3rd row in church, or to be more like the preacher’s wife. My prayer is to be more like Christ, so filled and so on fire that others want to know what has made me different. I don’t want to blend in, I want to be set apart.

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” -Romans 12:2




Gossip Hurts. (& you don’t even know it)

Yesterday after church Matt & I decided to use one of the fifty coupons we got in the mail this past week & go to lunch at Arby’s. They aren’t very spacious in the new location in Enka so we sat at a multiple chaired high top table, an elderly couple joined the table on the other end. During the meal another lady walked up to them. Since they were only a couple of chairs down from us we couldn’t help but overhear the conversation.

“Church was good this morning, the choir could have been better had ______(I missed the name) not looked so miserable. I mean, she’s up there in front of the church she could at least look a little bit more joyous.”

Matt & I just laughed, we know that some of the worst gossipers are church people. I don’t know what church they were from or who they were talking about nor is it any of my business..but as the day went on I couldn’t help but think of the girl they were talking about. What was going on in her life that made her look less than satisfactory expression wise while singing in the choir that morning? Did anyone attempt to talk to her or did they just talk about her instead? My heart hurts for the mystery girl. Because rather than talk about her they could have & should have prayed for her. Maybe asked her if she was alright? But by the couple & the ladies conversation they weren’t the only ones that noticed her less than joyous attitude & they weren’t the only ones that stated how unpleasant it was to see someone up there singing about the love of Jesus but looking so unhappy.

My heart still hurts today for mystery girl because I have been in her shoes & I have known people who have been in her shoes who decided to end the fight with suicide rather than keep fighting. My heart hurts because instead of loving like Christ as Christians should they decided to talk about her behind her back rather than be concerned that she was less than joyous. Sometimes a simple question of kind concern is all that it takes to change someone’s outlook on a situation & possibly change their mindset of the solution. Because let’s be honest, people who have suicidal thoughts are not open with them. They keep them to themselves.

As I type I’m talking to myself as well. I have been guilty of gossiping about people and talking about people but it doesn’t mean that it’s ok. It’s not. It’s something I struggle with because when everyone else is doing it, it’s easy to join in. Also, as someone who has been gossiped about I try to do better.

As Christians we should love one another. Care for one another & pray for one another. Instead of talking about how much church someone misses maybe you could text them & ask em if they’re ok, instead of talking about how miserable someone looks at church maybe you could talk to them & ask how they’re doing and so forth. 1 simple act of kindness is enough to set off a domino effect of kindness and could really change someone’s mindset on things. Be the sunshine in their world of clouds.

You never know what battle someone is going through, just because they’re not open about it doesn’t mean it’s not happening on the inside. We that carry the banner “Christian” should do better to represent the Christ like love.

“A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that yet are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.” John 13:34-35